Monday, January 25, 2010

Thanks God...

So God and I had a chat yesterday and I'll share it with you. I'm a firm believer in being real and honest and transparent. I also believe that God allows us to go through things so that we can use them to reach others when "only someone else who has been there" can understand. Some of you may know, most of you probably don't know, but since having Tristan I've had some struggles dealing with some postpartum depression type stuff. I won't share everything on here now but I'm up for talking about it if you need someone to talk to who's "been there"...know that you're not alone. Anyway, about my chat with God. I walked into church yesterday and as we began to worship, God spoke straight to my heart and I know it was Him. He told me "your husband is a gift to you, from Me and you need to cherish him and treat him that way." My first thought was "Yes, I've been grumpy lately and we have a lot going on, but God, he knows I love him." I was overwhelmed with love and admiration for Tommy as God reminded me of all that he blessed me with in a husband. I know this post could go on forever but I'll keep it short. In our conversation, God told me that I view my children as gifts from Him and I cherish them but I don't always view my husband like that. I take him for granted and I have so much to learn from him. I'm selfish at times and he always gives to me. I'm grumpy and unloving at times, but he continues to love me (not only with words but with actions) no matter what. Thank you God, for the reminder. And Thank you God for one of the greatest gifts of all. I'm so in love and grateful and will forever treasure Tommy as a gift from You, to me. Thanks God.

3 comments:

The Dugan's said...

Thanks for sharing. : )

Casey Jensen said...

I know it can be so hard to feel grateful for things and the people we love when you are feeling down. I totally know what you are going through. (okay maybe not totally) But I experienced the same thing after my first pregnancy. If you ever need anyone to talk to you can always email me or even call me. That experience has definitely opened my eyes to what others go through. Although I would never ever want to experience that again I am grateful for the experience so that I can have more compassion for others and know what they are going through. I hope things get better for you soon.

You are such a strong person and you totally make me want to be a better person. You inspire me to make my relationship with God stronger.

Tommy said...

youre the best babe. and btw ur not grumpo just stressed, me too. :) LUV YA